I Am Still Here !

I was thinking the other day...
Who am I ? Who am I as a widow ?
And this is what I found...
I am Pain, a pain that is always with me..
I am Sadness, one that appears from nowhere, yet I am always aware of it’s presence..
I am Grief, With every single cell in my body...
I am memories, A remembrance of every moment of a cherished life...
I am scared, As a young child would be if left alone in the world...
I am fearful, One huge emotion that represents the unknown and contains me from living a carefree life...
I am anger, For all that has happened, for events I could not not control...
Yet..
I am Hopeful, Of a Future worth living...
I am Grateful, For all the Blessing that have been given to me...
I am Content, Knowing that the simple things in life is what truly matters...
I am Fearless, What could I possibly fear now ?
I have already experience the worst event in my life...
I am Happy, I live in the moment because I know how life can change in an instant.
I am a Survivor, Because I live everyday with all these emotions and yet ...
I am Still Here !