I Am Still Here !

I was thinking the other day...

Who am I ? Who am I as a widow ?

And this is what I found...

I am Pain, a pain that is always with me..

I am Sadness, one that appears from nowhere, yet I am always aware of it’s presence..

I am Grief, With every single cell in my body...

I am memories, A remembrance of every moment of a cherished life...

I am scared, As a young child would be if left alone in the world...

I am fearful, One huge emotion that represents the unknown and contains me from living a carefree life...

I am anger, For all that has happened, for events I could not not control...

Yet..

I am Hopeful, Of a Future worth living...

I am Grateful, For all the Blessing that have been given to me...

I am Content, Knowing that the simple things in life is what truly matters...

I am Fearless, What could I possibly fear now ?

I have already experience the worst event in my life...

I am Happy, I live in the moment because I know how life can change in an instant.

I am a Survivor, Because I live everyday with all these emotions and yet ...

I am Still Here !